It may be time to be your own hero
Four months ago, I made a life decision in uncertainty. I joined the great resignation without a plan for my next life step.
For years I hoped and prayed for direction. I firmly thought that a door would open for me, my mind would find a map, and my heart would be at ease with the steps I would take. I would be leaving a job that only put a burden on my back to a career with greener pastures, doing something I enjoyed instead of slaving away.
In the six years of working as a cog in a machine, no door opened. No one handed me a map. My heart was as scared and worried over my future as it was from the beginning. Nothing changed except that I was getting older, circles under my eyes were growing darker, and I was burning out trying to keep it all together.
So, I plunged into the unknown. (Check out my post about joining the great resignation here).
Four months into oblivion, I have never felt freer from the demands of society and never felt so at peace.
As a student, I always struggled with getting good grades and graduating. After earning a degree, the burden of landing and keeping a job to pay for your life was the burden I had to bear— stages in life I know we are all familiar with.
2022: It was time to save myself.
Only after all these years was I able to break the cycle.
As a 27-year-old deciding to give herself a sabbatical, I was living off an early retirement benefit and savings from my years of toil. I had no societal and immediate need to get another job.
In the unknown, my heart was free to open itself to living and loving the life given me. I was free to dream again and free to be anywhere, anytime I wanted. (Check out my post about creativity and sleep—also dreaming—here).
Taking the plunge and saving myself from the painful situation I was stuck in was what I needed. I needed to be my own savior this time around.
I learned that you have to take matters into your own hands sometimes. You can’t just let the waves of life toss you around.
There would be days when waiting may not be the answer. When you realize you have been holding on to something and someone that never really existed in the first place.
Be the Heroine/Hero in your fairytale
This time, there may be no knight in shining armor knocking at your door to take you to your happily ever after.
You may have to make a choice. Get up from your prolonged slumber, and leave the tower you are stuck in.
Even if you do not know what will happen next and your heart is far from peaceful, you may be the one who has to make the first step.
The momentum will follow as you go along.
I let that momentum take me, engulf me, heal me, and lead me to the pastures that may not be “greener” but a healthier, vibrant, and hopefully, a much better field.
Here is a good read on self-compassion and self-improvement if you are on the journey to helping yourself.
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